Sunshine And Lollipops

Yowza! I am feeling so much better.

My friend had suggested that the doom and despair I was hauling around last week like an old tire was more the product of Sick Kid Syndrome than Recurrent Pregnancy Loss-itis. At the time I said uh-huh and flipped through the calendar trying to figure out when I would have a D&C but I now believe she might have been right. Two nights of Patrick sleeping well has left me feeling less convinced that we are in the twilight of the world and all things will succumb to death and sadness. In fact, for about two seconds yesterday I startled myself by thinking positively. I actually wondered, well, why not? Why shouldn’t this pregnancy work out? I mean, why not this one, this time?

It is a long way from calculating due dates but it is a step in the right direction I think.

Perhaps more importantly, I am waiting for the third beta result with a pleasant feeling of lightness that exists in sharp contradistinction to the teeth gnashing I did on Friday. On Friday I thought I was going to throw up until they called and even after the results were as good as they could be I still felt sick and desperate. Now I am eating cold leftover ribs and they are pretty damn good. Oh, and sorry, no recipe. I just bought the ribs from a rib place that is 1/100 as good as Sonny B’s in Chicago but 500 times better than what I can make.

I’ll come back this afternoon after I get the next hcg level. I also want to bitch about the Great Basement Project and today seems like a good a time as any since the air continues to be filled with the sound of hammering and my downstairs bathroom remains cluttered with contractors (yikes! sorry! I, um, didn't realize there was anyone in... I'll just go.)

Later.

Comments

[Laura K.]

Glad that both you and Patrick are feeling better!

As for contractors in the bathroom - don't EVEN get me started. I worked ina little coffee house with a one-seater bathroom. The summer I was there, the road was being redone in front of it, so the workers would come in (and because of the road being torn up, they were our main customers some days), buy a $1.50 cup of coffee and then take massive dumps in the bathroom! All day long. Ewwww! How's that for lovely?

Laura K.

[elisabeth]

Glad you are feeling less gloomy, can't wait to hear todays numbers...but I stumbled across something that I THINK you were jonesing for (if it wasn't you sorry, I just read a few too many blogs to keep them all straight) BUT anyway I found Kozy Shack pudding at Simon Delivers and it sparked a vague memory from a distant post of yours. So if you were looking for it. There it is. If not, well it sounds lovely, I might just have to order some....

[Jody]

Glad you're doing better. Just wanted to say, I'm here, refreshing hourly. When do you expect to hear?

Or should I just take a breath and come back after dinner, like a rational person.

[Linda]

Refreshing every few minutes and therefore more obesessed than Jody (hi, Jody!).

[Linda]

OBSESSED. Good grief.

[Ninotchka]

So glad you're feeling better, Julia! Now you have me craving bbq ribs, though. Thanks friend. lol

[Anita]

glad the hear others are obsessed with Julia's updates, too!!

[Scully]

Oh the power of a decent night's sleep.

Did everyone have their pants on when you went into the bathroom?

[Rebekah]

Gah. Glad to know I'm not the only one obsessively checking over here. =)

[sinda]

So, of course I have every possible digit crossed for you. And yes, I click to refresh obsessively all day long.

And how do you pay me back? By insidiously placing THAT SONG in my head so that it has PLAYED. ALL. DAY. LONG.

Thank you very much!

:)
Sinda

[JenniferD.]

Obsessed as well!!!!!! ;0)

[Sheridan]

It MUST be Monday afternoon there by now?? It's Tuesday here for goodness sake!!

Refresh....refresh......refresh

Glad to hear you are feeling better.

[A]

Refresh, Refresh, Refresh... eventually there will be news! Right?

[Becki]

Feeling hopeful for you, and have an easy ribs recipe to share: rub pork ribs generously with dried Worcestershire powder (Kroger carries it), place in a roasting pan in which you've poured 1/2 cup cider vinegar and 1/2 cup water; cover tightly and bake at 300 degrees for 2 1/2 - 3 hours; grill for 15 minutes and brush with your favorite barbecue sauce.

Hope you're feeling better soon.