Oh, Julia. It is so unfair that you have to go through this. It makes no sense at all. Please don't give up hope, although it must seem impossible right now. Thank God for Patrick: he's living proof that you CAN do it and you WILL do it again. My thoughts and prayers and hopes are with you.
The place you're in now, this waiting period, knowing what will happen but strung between wild out-there hope for a miracle and desperate despair is one of the very worst places ot be - I hate that place with a passion. I can deal with hope and I can deal with despair but suspended between the two is the abolsute worst.
Oh no, oh no, oh no. I am so sorry. Just so sorry. I've been through this three times myself and I feel for you so much right now. I too predicted my last miscarriage to my RE, who professed utter shock when I was right. Why, why, why does this have to be so hard, so uncontrollable? Why if we have such great gut instincts about what's going on with our bodies and our babies can't that translate into knowing what in the world to do to hold onto them? It's the most helpless feeling in the world, lying there prone on the table, impaled on a wand that seems to drive straight into the heart of that little flickering firefly there on the screen. I'm holding you and your family in my thoughts.
-Anne
I just started reading your blog and was so hopeful that this one was going to work out. I'm so sorry. I will be thinking of you and your family in this horrible time.
Oh my god Julia.
I am so, so heartbroken for you. There is nothing to say except that I am so sorry. This is so far out of the boundaries of not fair. You are in my thoughts & prayers.
Oh, Julia. I am so, so sorry.
Posted by: Jenn | March 08, 2005 at 07:09 PM
Oh, Julia. There are no words.
Posted by: Brooklyn Girl | March 08, 2005 at 07:11 PM
I am so very sorry... thinking of you.
Posted by: terri c | March 08, 2005 at 07:14 PM
I'm so sorry.
Posted by: chris | March 08, 2005 at 07:19 PM
I am so sorry.
Posted by: Erin | March 08, 2005 at 07:20 PM
sadness. no right words.
Posted by: mad | March 08, 2005 at 07:20 PM
God, I'm sorry. You're in my thoughts.
Posted by: Marivic | March 08, 2005 at 07:22 PM
Absolutely horrible news. I'm so sorry for all that you've been through.
Posted by: Wavery | March 08, 2005 at 07:25 PM
Oh, Julia I am so, so sorry.
Sending much love to you guys.
xxoo
Posted by: Anna H. | March 08, 2005 at 07:27 PM
Oh, Julia. It is so unfair that you have to go through this. It makes no sense at all. Please don't give up hope, although it must seem impossible right now. Thank God for Patrick: he's living proof that you CAN do it and you WILL do it again. My thoughts and prayers and hopes are with you.
Posted by: Karina | March 08, 2005 at 07:29 PM
Oh, crap. I'm so horribly sorry. This is just not right.
Posted by: Sonetka | March 08, 2005 at 07:30 PM
i am so so sorry.
Posted by: susannah | March 08, 2005 at 07:31 PM
I'm sorry. It's so unfair.
Posted by: Kay | March 08, 2005 at 07:32 PM
I'm very sorry, Julia. You're in my thoughts.
Posted by: Allison | March 08, 2005 at 07:37 PM
Oh, my dear cyber-friend, I'm SOOO sorry. I've been silently watching your posts, saying quiet prayers the whole time.
Know that you're in my thoughts.
Posted by: Karen | March 08, 2005 at 07:39 PM
I am so very, very sorry. Just not fair. Crap.
Posted by: tenn | March 08, 2005 at 07:41 PM
peace to you.
Posted by: | March 08, 2005 at 07:42 PM
I am sorry.
Posted by: | March 08, 2005 at 07:43 PM
Oh Julia. I am so, so sorry. So very sorry.
Posted by: oliviadrab | March 08, 2005 at 07:44 PM
Oh fuck. Not fair. I'm so sorry.
Posted by: Jessica | March 08, 2005 at 07:44 PM
Shit, piss, fuck
I'm sorry; I'm sad for you. You're a delight to me and I wish this wasn't happening.
Posted by: Lala | March 08, 2005 at 07:46 PM
Words cannot express how sorry I am.
Posted by: Cat | March 08, 2005 at 07:46 PM
I am so very sorry.
Posted by: Lisa | March 08, 2005 at 07:48 PM
Oh, God, Julia. My heart is breaking for you. I am so very very sorry.
Posted by: Kat | March 08, 2005 at 07:51 PM
Julia, I am so very, very sorry. Very sorry.
Posted by: Jo | March 08, 2005 at 07:52 PM
Delurking to say how sorry I am for you.
Posted by: wavybrains | March 08, 2005 at 07:55 PM
Oh, Julia - I know this won't help at all, but I am so, so, so very sorry as well. I am keeping you, Steve, and Patrick in my prayers.
Posted by: Kim | March 08, 2005 at 07:56 PM
It's so totally inadequate, but - I'm so sorry.
Damn.
Posted by: ginger | March 08, 2005 at 07:58 PM
oh, no. no no no. damn.
i am so sorry.
Posted by: cass | March 08, 2005 at 07:59 PM
I am so very sad for you! You are in my thoughts Julia!!
Posted by: JenniferD. | March 08, 2005 at 08:03 PM
Oh shit Julia. I'm really sorry. I will be thinking of you & keeping you in my prayers.
Posted by: Lisa S (et al) | March 08, 2005 at 08:03 PM
Julia
I am so sorry
The place you're in now, this waiting period, knowing what will happen but strung between wild out-there hope for a miracle and desperate despair is one of the very worst places ot be - I hate that place with a passion. I can deal with hope and I can deal with despair but suspended between the two is the abolsute worst.
I'm sorry
Rae
Posted by: rae | March 08, 2005 at 08:04 PM
((hug))
Posted by: Soper | March 08, 2005 at 08:05 PM
Oh no, oh no, oh no. I am so sorry. Just so sorry. I've been through this three times myself and I feel for you so much right now. I too predicted my last miscarriage to my RE, who professed utter shock when I was right. Why, why, why does this have to be so hard, so uncontrollable? Why if we have such great gut instincts about what's going on with our bodies and our babies can't that translate into knowing what in the world to do to hold onto them? It's the most helpless feeling in the world, lying there prone on the table, impaled on a wand that seems to drive straight into the heart of that little flickering firefly there on the screen. I'm holding you and your family in my thoughts.
-Anne
Posted by: ManhattanAnne | March 08, 2005 at 08:07 PM
My heart aches for you and your family. This is just so very, very wrong.
Posted by: deborah | March 08, 2005 at 08:08 PM
I so desperately want something more to say than I am so very sorry.
Posted by: Lisa M. | March 08, 2005 at 08:09 PM
Oh, Julia. Oh my god, that's sad and horrible. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Posted by: Annie | March 08, 2005 at 08:09 PM
Oh no. I am so sorry Julia. Am thinking of you, thinking of all of you.
Posted by: Sheridan | March 08, 2005 at 08:10 PM
I'm so very sorry. Keeping you in my thoughts.
Posted by: Paula | March 08, 2005 at 08:16 PM
I am so, so sorry.
Posted by: Anita | March 08, 2005 at 08:19 PM
NO!
Sorry just doesn't cut it sometimes. I wish I had another word that means more.
Posted by: CJ | March 08, 2005 at 08:23 PM
oh, God. I am so sorry.
Posted by: jenn | March 08, 2005 at 08:26 PM
I just started reading your blog and was so hopeful that this one was going to work out. I'm so sorry. I will be thinking of you and your family in this horrible time.
Posted by: Jen (yup, another one) | March 08, 2005 at 08:32 PM
Hate that this is happening--I am so sorry.
Posted by: m | March 08, 2005 at 08:33 PM
oh. my.
That absolutely sucks. :-( I'm so sorry...
Posted by: parodie | March 08, 2005 at 08:34 PM
So very very sorry. My thoughts are with you.
Posted by: KimN | March 08, 2005 at 08:36 PM
Oh my god Julia.
I am so, so heartbroken for you. There is nothing to say except that I am so sorry. This is so far out of the boundaries of not fair. You are in my thoughts & prayers.
Posted by: jenn | March 08, 2005 at 08:38 PM
I am terribly sorry, Julia.
Posted by: bond girl | March 08, 2005 at 08:41 PM
Shit. I'm so very sorry.
Posted by: Amanda | March 08, 2005 at 08:48 PM
Tears are falling for you tonight, dear friend.
I wish so much that the outcome had been a happy one. Ah, Julia.
Posted by: Mollie | March 08, 2005 at 08:53 PM