12 days past a 5 day transfer or 17 days past retrieval, which equates to 17 days past ovulation, and the beta hcg is 52.
52.
I will save you the trouble of asking and just go ahead and tell you that this number is fucking terrible.
If you need me I will be in the bathtub for awhile.
That is so not fair.
I'm so sorry.
Posted by: parodie | August 10, 2005 at 04:22 PM
This sucks! I am so sorry.
Posted by: JuliaKB | August 10, 2005 at 04:22 PM
Well shit. You deserve better than this. I'm going to still check back wtih hope on Friday, but I agree, it just sucks.
Posted by: Christine K | August 10, 2005 at 04:35 PM
I don't know anything about beta levels, so I'll just say that I'm sorry.
Posted by: Christine | August 10, 2005 at 04:36 PM
Oh, crap. I am sorry. Will keep my fingers crossed and hope anyway.
Posted by: andrea | August 10, 2005 at 04:36 PM
I hope the bath helped.
Wishing good things for you and Steve and Patrick
Posted by: Jenn | August 10, 2005 at 04:54 PM
I'm sorry.
There are no other words.
Posted by: Marsha | August 10, 2005 at 04:56 PM
I'm sorry the universe isn't giving you your joy easily. We will still hope and pray that these numbers double. You deserve a break.
Posted by: Donnie | August 10, 2005 at 04:57 PM
I'll spare you the stuff about "low numbers can turn out fine", and just say I'm sorry you're going through this, and I'm praying very hard that things will turn out ok.
Posted by: colicmommy | August 10, 2005 at 04:59 PM
Sorry, Julia. I hope you are doing okay.
Posted by: halloweenlover | August 10, 2005 at 05:02 PM
Damn it. I'm sorry.
Posted by: Anastasia | August 10, 2005 at 05:03 PM
God, I am just so sorry. That sucks. Crap.
Posted by: Anna | August 10, 2005 at 05:05 PM
late implanter, only matters if it doubles...I will spare you the rest.
So sorry it wasn't higher.
Posted by: Amber | August 10, 2005 at 05:09 PM
Sending hugs and prayers.
So, so not fair.
Posted by: Rhonda | August 10, 2005 at 05:10 PM
Sorry. So sorry. No words.
Thanks for taking the time to tell us before bathing. The Internet is with you in there, sloshing and hogging the washcloth, hoping to soothe your sore heart.
Posted by: wheelomatic | August 10, 2005 at 05:11 PM
if you need me, just call.
Posted by: elisabeth | August 10, 2005 at 05:18 PM
blah blah blah very early blah blah doubling's what counts blah blah blah please universe.
But really, sorry the munber is so discouraging. hope you enjoy your bath.
Posted by: Brandee | August 10, 2005 at 05:26 PM
I'm so sorry...
Posted by: Toni | August 10, 2005 at 05:34 PM
Crap. Unexpected bad news is the worst. Sorry Julia.
Posted by: Lyss | August 10, 2005 at 05:35 PM
Shit shit shit. Hoping for you that it's just a slow starter (need I remind you of Brooklyn Girl's 14 dpo beta of 14?). At the same time, I know it's really hard to hold onto any hope at this point.
So very sorry.
Posted by: Jen | August 10, 2005 at 05:35 PM
well, fuck. so not fair. will hang on to my glimmer of hope for you and rail against the universe simultaneously
Posted by: Jen (yup, another one) | August 10, 2005 at 05:37 PM
Shit, I'm so sorry. I hope it doubles, but I know it just feels like shit right now.
Posted by: Thalia | August 10, 2005 at 05:41 PM
Very blue for you. That is a fucker and I am sorry.
Crossing fingers for more auspicious results on Friday.
Posted by: Nancy | August 10, 2005 at 05:41 PM
I don't know what to say other than it's absolutely not fair, and I am so so sorry.
Posted by: Lioness | August 10, 2005 at 05:44 PM
Julia--I'm sorry. So sorry.
Since Jen mentioned it, I will repeat that my initial beta was 14.3 at 10dp3dt. It sucked. And then it didn't.
I wish good things for you.
Posted by: Brooklyn Girl | August 10, 2005 at 05:44 PM
Just had to say that my fifth pregnancy (turned out to be my second child) my beta was LOW LOW LOW and they said "you'll miscarry" and that kid is now 7 months old.
Hang in there.
Posted by: cris | August 10, 2005 at 05:46 PM
so very, very sorry. pulling for you all.
Posted by: terri c | August 10, 2005 at 05:49 PM
That Fucking sucks ass!
Love you! Hang in there!
Posted by: Aimee | August 10, 2005 at 05:53 PM
Fuck!
Posted by: Shevon | August 10, 2005 at 06:12 PM
im sorry julia.
Posted by: aderyn | August 10, 2005 at 06:15 PM
I'm sorry, Julia.
Posted by: Milenka | August 10, 2005 at 06:23 PM
Oh Julia. What can I say?
Posted by: Cat, Galloping | August 10, 2005 at 06:24 PM
Shit Julia. Shit shit shit. Shit. I don't know what else to say. My thoughts are with you.
Posted by: Sheridan | August 10, 2005 at 06:26 PM
What the fuck, Julia?
That's all I know to say. What the fuck. I'm so sorry.
Posted by: Betsy | August 10, 2005 at 06:28 PM
Oh no, not again. I am so sorry.
Posted by: Yatima | August 10, 2005 at 06:31 PM
No no no no no no no no no no no no.... It's got to be good.... Come on dammit.
Thinking of you.
JK
Posted by: JK | August 10, 2005 at 06:35 PM
I'm so so sorry.
Posted by: Leggy | August 10, 2005 at 06:44 PM
No, no, no, no, NO! I don't know what it all means, but SURELY it doesn't mean "fucking terrible"!! After all you been through?? SURELY!!!
Just NO.
Posted by: Karen | August 10, 2005 at 06:48 PM
I'm sorry.
Posted by: Erin | August 10, 2005 at 06:48 PM
The suckitude of this suckiness is astronomical. I hope for a surprising and insanely happy 2nd beta.
Love you Julia.
Posted by: Ollie | August 10, 2005 at 06:53 PM
Fuck. I'm sorry.
Posted by: Ninotchka | August 10, 2005 at 06:53 PM
Crap. Fuck. Shit. Nothing else seems to fit. I'm sorry. I hope for a surpise second beta.
I'm sorry.
Posted by: Emily | August 10, 2005 at 07:18 PM
I'm so sorry. You are in my thoughts tonight.
Posted by: Leslie | August 10, 2005 at 07:21 PM
Oh fuck.
Posted by: Lisa S (et al, aka Stolidoli) | August 10, 2005 at 07:30 PM
Shit fuck damn. That is horrible.
Posted by: anita | August 10, 2005 at 07:31 PM
so, so sorry. I don't even know you, and this makes me want to cry with you and pass the big, super deluxe box of chocolates. On a totally random note, you are my all time favorite blogger, and I dream of growing up to blog like you. But now's probably a really inappropriate time to tell you that, so I'll just shut it.
Instead, in a really pissy voice, I join the chorus and just say,
Fuck.
Posted by: katharine | August 10, 2005 at 07:42 PM
I'm totally a Google Whore, but this is what I found:
* At 17 DPO, the average HCG level is 132 mIU/ml, with a typical range of 17-429 mIU/ml.
http://www.thedoctorslounge.net/gynecology/labs/pregnancy_test.htm
Call me an optimist, but I am going to remain hopeful.
Posted by: Lisa S (et al, aka Stolidoli) | August 10, 2005 at 07:46 PM
ARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I am so sorry.
Sarah
Posted by: Sarah L | August 10, 2005 at 07:48 PM
That sucks monkey balls.
Posted by: Linda | August 10, 2005 at 08:02 PM
If you *want* hopeful comments, read on. If not, feel free to ignore me (as if you weren't free without my express permission). Anyway, at 14 days past a 3-day transfer, which put me right where you are at 17 days past ovulation, my beta was 27. Twenty fucking seven. And two days later it still hadn't quite doubled. And yet, it worked. Of course, I'm an "expect the worst and you'll never be disappointed" kind of gal, so I'd be right there in the tub too.
Posted by: tracy | August 10, 2005 at 08:32 PM